Late night musings

One of the available character traits on the new Sims 3 game is "excitable": adj. 1. Easily excited. 2. Capable of responding to stimuli.

Finally! A word to describe my love affair with projects, goals, and new situations. Well, a very limited word, really, but one possibility. I now know that making goals such as working out x amount times per week, or vowing to do my bible study, errands, etc., at a certain time every day will be attainable for the first couple of weeks, and then it will fall away. Thank God I don't have to try and give up anything hard or accomplish something serious like quitting smoking...I think I might fail miserably! It's one thing to recognize this in myself for trivial personality tweaks, but what about bigger issues...what about love? Sometimes I worry that I love being excited about my relationship; I love falling in love. Not bad things by any means, but what if that's where my heart is? When I begin thinking like this, I try and bring myself back by thinking about the friendship, the history that's there, and the trust and respect between us that underlies everything. It helps, but if I'm being honest, it doesn't soothe me completely every time.

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On a different note, I heard the other night that blessings are inefficient. SO good to hear- so encouraging for someone who may just give their pinky finger if only life could be handled efficiently all the time (aka, moi). One of the most frustrating things in my life right now is my lack of efficiency... my seeming lack of a purpose. It was nice to be reminded that His ways are not my ways, and that my time schedule is laughable and insignificant. It was nice to hear that though I feel I currently have no purpose, he can be blessing me through it.

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Wowza, I just saw a guy on tv inject a leg of meat with komodo dragon venom-- three days later it was gray/black, disintegrated, and all curdled-looking. Now that's quality entertainment!